Fun Day off

Yesterday was my day off and I wasn't quite sure what our plans would be. I struggled with "should I do errand and shopping" or "have a day of fun"? It's really a hard choice at times b/c 1 day off I never get everything done and absolutely nothing done when we do a fun activity. As summer draws to an end I find myself giving in more and more to the idea of funness. So as a surprise I loaded DS up and headed to the local water park. He was super excited. We had tons of fun and couldn't have picked a better day to go since it got close to 100*! Even though I slathered on lots of sunscreen I still got a slight burn on my belly and lower back. I don't think it's bad enough that I'll even peel. And let me just add how much nicer and cleaner this water park was compared to the one we went to 2wks ago!!

****The best part of the night was laying in bed and having the little bean just jumping around. He FINALLY kept it up long enough to get DH and DS to both feel!! I've been feeling him move for some time now, but he's had yet to be consistent enough to have them, so it was a great moment.

Maybe there's just no pregnant women in my town???

I mean that's the feeling I get when I've gone shopping for maternity clothes!! All the major stores have basically NOTHING. Even the dreaded Wal.mart has only 3 shirts and no pants. What's up with that? So with DS and DH out fishing today I headed to the mall. I figured the nicer stores were bound to have some cute clothes right? Wrong! No store in my mall has a maternity section. When I asked the assistant at JCP and she told me that I almost started crying. I was shocked. She told me that I'd have to go to the next city over to their mall. I just wasn't up to that today. So I'm just gonna have to live with my work pants digging into my stomach for 1 more wk until I have a day off, and that's IF I feel up to shopping.

20 Weeks today!!!!!!

Holy Moly where has the time gone? I can't believe I'm already half way there! And this week I officially felt the baby kicking. And I mean kicking, enough to finally feel it on the outside of belly.

I've been on a stay-cation this wk. We had plans to leave town but the plane tickets were just too much. So I've been home with DS and everyday trying to do something fun for him. Today I'm taking him to Splash down! A local water park. I'm hoping it's not too busy, less people seeing my ghostly whiteness and jiggly body. lol

Update on Step-daughter

Ok so anyone who's read my blog knows a little history with her and here's the latest. Basically since she got out of jail this last time she's had a warrant for not going to court. And she's been in the next state hiding out and even refusing to come to Idaho to see us for her birthday (and we bribed with money.) At first she was talking how her and this woman had a plan to stay out of trouble, get their GED's and finish up her court stuff. Well that lasted oh about a wk. Since then when she does call she's either drunk or high or just spouting crap out of her mouth that you don't want to hear about. For instance how her dealer "kidnapped" her b/c her friend ripped them off.

Anywho, the other wk I get a text from her on how sad she is that it's a boy and that she cried and we'll just need to try again. Well this really irrated me since we hadn't even gotten a phone call on DS or my bday. It shouldn't bother me but it did. So I wrote back it's not all about what she wants and she wrote 'well yes it is since I'm the only 1 I care about'. Well ok then, fine. So I quit texting her until last night when she text me. It went something like this:

her: guess what
me: what (and for some odd reason I just knew she'd write: I'm pg!)
her: I'm pregnant
me: for sure
her: yeah but I don't want it
me: too late for that don't you think
her: not really
me: well that's a choice you'll have to live w/the rest of your life

Let me add that she's done this before; the saying she's pg when she's really not. The last time was when her mom died and she thought the guy would want to stick around and then she wouldn't have to come and live with us. That pg never excisted.

Awhile ago we took her to an endocrinologist to check out PCOS; she's got all the classic symptoms plus since the age of 12 she's slept around (a lot) and has never gotten pg. That Dr said she didn't have it but I just didn't agree.

With no way to see her and see for myself that she's really pg I'm stuck with this feeling of she's doing it again for attention, yet at the same time I wonder and worry. I figure if she's really pg (and doesn't terminate) then she'll show up soon looking for our help. If she's not then this pg will just "go away" again like last time. And in the mean time I don't need to stress myself out. I really really really really really hope she's not pg. I know for a fact that she's not willing to give up her drug lifestyle and grow up and put the baby first. This has always been our biggest fear with her. Sorry to ramble, just a lot going through my mind with this.

All in a photo

Where the arrow is, is HIS privates.

A month!!

That's how long it's been since I posted!! Wow I've been a bad blogger. I've just not had much energy to do anything extra. I'm lucky if I get the laundry folded and forget putting it away. Pg is going nicely. No major symptoms. Boobs are bigger, I had to go buy a bigger bra the other day. Yeah a nice perk huh. Tummy looks like I did last summer before I lost 10lbs. So my last Dr apt was a very quick in and out where the Dr found the heartbeat and asked for questions. We agreed that a calcium supp would be a good idea since I DO NOT drink milk. I can't even force myself to drink the stuff unless it's in my cereal. I go back in on my Bday for the BIG ultrasound to hopefully find out if it's the blue or pink team for us. We're all pretty excited. DS is pushing pretty hard for a boy but I keep asking him what if it's a girl? He told my dad "well if it's a girl we can't send it back!" I think he'll be ok though if it is. My SIL gave me a doppler I think it's called. It's just a little unit that you put on the belly and it has headphones to listen with. We tried it the other night and DH, DS and my mom all got to listen and by the time they FINALLY passed it to me it was silence! The little buggar was hiding from me. Pretty cool thing though and sure we'll be using it often.

Nerve wracking Dr apt

I had my first "official" OB apt on Tuesday. It started off ok with just the basic pee in a cup, blood pressure and some questions. The N.P was very nice and we moved right into trying to find the heartbeat. I'm still not feeling pg and told her so and with my history or m/c she understood. She tried for almost 5 mins trying to find the heartbeat with that little doppler thing. And the whole time I'm thinking *see there's a reason I don't feel pg*. She was very nice and reasurred me that that doesn't mean there's no baby, and was able to get my Dr P to do an Ultrasound! Baby was found right where it should be. I was hoping for a better pic, but still ended up with an alien shot, oh well maybe next time. lol

As I'd said before there has been a very unfortunate mix up with my coding with insurance. They put the dreaded *I* word in my code, which I'm not; so I was able to talk to the billing lady and hopefully get most of that straightened out. Looks like I'm stuck paying for the 2 ultrasounds at the time of the IUI, but everything else should be taken care of and hopfully no more stress over that.

I go back to Dr on the 29th. They want to hear the heartbeat before they set me up for the every 4wk apts. There are 3 Dr's and 1 midwife, so I am cycling through them since you never know who you'll get at delivery. I finally told my managers at work. They are super excited, and luckily no questions yet on afterwards if I'm sticking around or not. At this point I'm not sure if I'll be able to work. We told Ds that night also. I tried being all serious and told him the Dr said I had an alien growing inside me. He just looked at me with an amazed look in his eye and said *No sir mom, you're just pregnant!" He seems very excited and we talked about how long it would take to have our baby, and that he can't rough house with me anymore. I let him take one of the new ultrasound pics to school and he told his whole class.

Feeling like Cr**

My son has been sick with a cold the last couple of days, so I knew that it was just a matter of time before I got it. And sure enough sore throat, runny/stuffy nose and feeling run down. As if I'm not tired enough already. I wasn't able to get a hold of my Dr's office yesterday to find out what I can take, so I asked the Walmart pharmacist and he told me there was really nothing safe to take. To stick with cough drops. I thought that sounded weird, I mean there must be something safe to take for a day or two. So for now I'm drinking hot tea with lots of lemon and honey, that helps with the throat but not for the nose. I've yet to get the cough that he has but I'm sure that's on it's way too. So if any of you have any helpful advice please share.

I keep telling my DH that if I'm going to be this tired the whole pregnancy I'm in for a world of hurt. With my hours of work there is absoluetely no time for a nap. And with the 1-2 bathroom breaks throughout the night, I might as well forget about catching up on any sleep. I'm hoping some of the fatigue is caused by the prog supplement and once that's done I might feel slightly better. Well a girl can dream at least.

All is well

Dr apt yesterday went great. Bean is right where it should be. And I saw the most teeniest, tiniest little heartbeat flicker imaginable on that gray scale screen!!! No I can sit back and hopefully get to enjoying this symptom free pg. Both cysts are still there, but if I heard him correctly they're both slightly smaller. Next apt is a "reg OB" visit in 4 weeks. What should I expect on that visit?

Insurance arghh

I am really beginning to understand the frustrations with insurance. I've been checking my EOB's online, patiently waiting to see that the ultrasounds I paid for would be covered 100% and I'd get a credit. I mean that's what my benefits read: diagnostic ultrasounds are covered. So what's the problem? Also, even though the first Dr's visit was listed the same it was listed "in network" and only a copay was required. Well all others since then are listed as full payment required by me??? I do know the Dr's office recently switched who does their billing and perhaps things were miss coded or something, at least that's what I'm hoping.

Here's a insurance ? for those with more knowledge on how these things work: in January I saw a chiropractor and paid full price as those services aren't covered until deductible is met. So anyways the EOB's list his charges submitted to insurance, then they deducted "in Network savings" and list the reduced price as what I should owe Dr. My question is: does that mean I have a credit at the chiropractor's b/c they charged me full price rather than the "in network price"? It's a difference of about $50.

Nothing much

Not much going on right now. I told my close relatives over Easter, they of course were all very happy. I go back on the 22nd for another ultrasound. After this 1 I think I'll really start to believe that this is gonna work out. I'm just shy of 7 weeks and still no major symptoms. I was telling my SIL "I wish I did have morning sickness, at least then I'd feel pg". And I think the no symtom thing is what is really causing me to still have doubts. I've been watching that show "I didn't know I was pg." I find it really hard to believe you could go 9 months without knowing, but with no symptoms I can see why some women could go 2-3 months. If I was a young "normal" girl who knew nothing of her cycle I could easily not suspect.

Happy Easter Everyone

Every year for Easter my mom's mom's side of the family has a huge family reunion, pot luck, and Easter egg hunt. To me it's 1 of the funest things all year. For every person who comes you are to bring 1 dz colored eggs and #'s add up real quick. I'm not sure how many showed yesterday but we had around 850 Eggs!!! Everyone from infants to the golden oldies hunt for eggs. It's major competition, a mad dash to get every egg you can. And I got 13 eggs :( not my best year. Afterwards we all pig out, visit and take lots of pictures. I have lots of memories from these reunions, and I hope it's something my children's children get to experience.

Progressing nicely

So sorry about not posting sooner. Monday's apt was short and sweet. Scan shows 1 little bean safely where she should be. Although it also showed cysts on both ovaries. The left was quite big, he didn't say exactly but the right is the size of a golf ball and this one was way bigger. This one showed a dark area I guess that means I've already bleed into it once. Weird since I haven't really felt anything and not sure what activiy could have caused that since I haven't done anything streneous. I have another apt for April 23 for a scan. That one will be good since by then a heartbeat should show! Super excited for that one. Still no major symptoms and slowly but surely I've getting over my fear that that means bad things. I have a big family reunion this saturday for Easter. I'm pretty sure I'm going to tell everyone then since I only see most of this family once a year. They will be over the moon. At what point do most tell young children? DS is almost 6 and I know I won't tell him until at least 12 wks, but do you wait until much later? He's been asking for a sibling for awhile, so I'm hoping he likes the news. He understands the whole "pregnancy" word too, his teacher is currently pg and he's excited about that.

Hope everyone has a great weekend. The sun is finally shining around here and I can't wait to get out there on my day off and enjoy it!

Misc

Let's see, not a whole lot going on today. DS is coming back from grandma's house, it was a nice break for me. The sun is FINALLY shining around here, it's about time is all I have to say about that. Step-daughter hasn't given us any problems, however she's basically "fallen off the face of the earth" since she hasn't called since she got out. Who knows what kind of trouble she's off getting into. We do worry about her since she's basically homeless, bouncing from couch to couch, but since she doesn't see a problem with that there's nothing much we can do. My Dr's apt is tomorrow. I'm feeling a little more confident about this pg, but will feel so much better after ultrasound (assuming it's all good of course). Wishing I had more symptoms to confirm what's going on in there. Still only symptoms to report is: slightly tender breasts, early am waking for bathroom and that's about it!!! I'm working tomorrow, so won't be able to report until night time on how apt went.

count down

I'm not ready to start counting down this pg just yet. I'm taking baby steps b/c I still have lots of worry about m/c. So for now I'm counting down until April 6th, my first ultrasound to see the sac. I think after this innitial apt I'll start to feel a little more confident since that would be the longest I've made it in a pregnancy.

6 days to go

Update on me

So I'm at 18dpo today. Still no real symptoms. Basically my nipples are more sensitive, and I've been waking up early to pee and then can't go back to sleep. That last 1 is sooo not me, I hate early mornings and love to sleep in. With my history of early m/c having no symptoms is very hard not to freak out and worry all the time. I'm just trying to enjoy this and not stress. I need to call Dr office this am to schedule my ultrasound on the 6th. I'm so super nervous about seeing more than 1 in there. I keep thinking: twins would be ok, I could deal with that; but the thought of triplets about sends me over the edge! Totally freaks me out. So this first scan will help ease my mind a little.

The 1 thing that has me really stressed is that tomorrow my step-daughter gets out of jail again. This time she's been in just shy of 3months. Since I wrote a very to the point letter about her stealing and us not agreeing with that, she hasn't wrote us back. She did call on our Anniversary, I wasn't home to speak with her but DH did and it's so hard to know if she's telling you the truth or not. She might be moving in with some chick she met in jail and supposedly watching her kids! But again that's what she did last time and her and the lady ran around and stole from everyone. And I figure anyone she's hooking up with in jail is probably not the best influence. But the main reason I'm stressed is that you can trust her as far as you can throw her! It's back to locking everything up again: the shed, house, DS four wheeler, cars; everything. And if she comes to visit you practically have to pat her down everytime she leaves a room to see what she's stuffed in her pockets. She's to go back to court on the 10th, we'll see if she goes. More often than not she chooses to run until she's caught, that way she can "have fun" until then. The girl's pretty messed up and I just keeping 1 day she'll "grow up" and change the course of her life, but as more and more time goes by I realize that might never happen.

Beta results

Ok so Tuesday beta: 33, today: 99. It tripled in 72 hours. I will have an ultrasound in 10 days. Dr says by then he can see a sac. Also important to remember is that 3 follies ruptured so hopefully we can see how many are in there! I still have no real symptoms, that makes it a little harder to believe. I'm now just trying to sit back, take a deep breath and try to get that sure feeling I had before. I'm hopful the prog is doing it's job and that this little bean will stick.

Waiting, waiting, waiting

i really hate to wait. I go in for repeat beta today and will have to wait about 4hrs. But I'll be at work and I can't check my messages until my break. If results aren't in at 1:30 at my first break then I'll have to wait until 4!! :( I won't be able to post the #'s until I get home after 8pm.

Different Test

and it still reads PREGNANT!!!! I bought the ept digital last night and used it first thing this am. According to peeonastick these tests are to be LESS sensitive, reading 50mIU instead of the typical 25. I figure my beta of 33 by now would have doubled therefore giving me the + test. That hopefully proves that it wasn't the shot still in my system on Tuesday. I'm still in shock and not quite beliving it yet. Not until I get tomorrows results confirming beta went up! And then for the next couple of weeks worrying that it won't stick. I've never gotten past the 6wk mark so I won't completly relax for awhile.

Just a feeling

It's hard to explain but the cycle of my BFP in October (early m/c) from very early on in cycle "I just knew it would work" I can't explain why, I just had this feeling. Even on 10dpo when I woke up with cramps, bloating and upset stomach; all signs of AF and with a Negative pg test I still just had this feeling. Every day I tested and it was negative but I just had a feeling, with no pg symptoms. Finally on 13dpo the test was Positive, just like I knew it would be.

Well even though that cycle didn't work out for us, I've stayed positive. This cycle I've had the same feeling. Perhaps it's just that I trust the Dr so much, but I haven't stressed or overanalyzed everything it's been the most relaxing cycle yet. With the way my cycle lined up with our anniversary and Dh's bday, I just knew we should go ahead with Dr ast. We were going to try 1 last month at home, but something was telling me to go with the Dr. And so at very last minute we arranged for the AI, and I've just had a positive feeling ever since.

So I went ahead and tested yesterday, and when it came back positive I was on the moon. Now this limbo time until Friday's repeat test is driving me bonkers! I still have that feeling but I'm doubting myself. The thing I hate the most is having hope about something, "getting that thing" and then having it taken away. I'm much better with just hoping and wishing, and if it happens it happens but I'm not crushed. Does that make sense? So until Friday ladies. Wish me luck.

Quick question

Anyone know how long a hcg trigger shot stays in your system? I'm 12dpo and wondering if it would still affect a pg test. I didn't test earlier to see if it went from positive back to negative, wishing I would have now.

9dop and counting

I am still really positive about this cycle, perhaps it's the fact that a Dr did it, but I've been non-obsessive about signs and symptoms. And that has helped with stress along the way. There are a couple friends that know we are doing this, and the close ones know that there were 3 eggs at the time and boy do they keep harrassing us about having triplets!! Which I don't mind, I just keep thinking what if they jinx us and I DO have triplets. What in the world would we do? When I get dinner ready DH and I will joke that I have to feed the triplets and such. I think I've given DH more gray hairs this month. lol Poor fella he's taking it so well.

I'm thinking wednesday will be my test day. That will be 13dpo which is when I got BFP last time and if it's neg I'll feel that that's an accurate result and I can "move on" to next cycle.

CD 6

No symptoms to report. I'm experiencing some slight side effects from the progesterone: sleepiness and leg cramps. Luckily the cramps aren't that bad, just every once in awhile. CD 12 would be Tuesday-my day off so I'm hoping that I'll get my BFP that day. That would be the day AF would typically show, but as we know she won't be visiting again for awhile right!!! A girl's got to stay positive.

Yesterday was an awful day for me. I woke up around 4am with awful stomach cramps, bloating and then the diarreah started. I didn't have much in the way of meds, I finally found some tums and immodeum ad. I did hurl once and then started to feel better. I felt well enough to go to work, luckily I don't have to be there until 11:30 so had enough time to recuperate. Although it was tough, I struggled through work; I was so tired while still having some stomach cramping.

Officially in the TWW

Ok so yesterday AI went great. We had it done around 2pm, so 28 hours after trigger shot. I felt strong O pains all day with the most last night. I'm thinking I O'd around 11 pm or so. Today I went into Dr's for 1 last ultrasound to confirm O and sure enough all 3 follies ruptured!!!!! Triplets, wouldn't that be a hoot. Anyways he prescribed progesterone vag starting tomorrow. If no AF by day 15 come in for pg test. I keep telling him "first times the charm dr". I just feel lucky this month, I mean the way O time fell around my anniversary, dh bday and I managed to get 4 days off so no stress around AI time. I'm feeling pretty positive.

3.12.09

That will be the date of my first ever (and hopefully only) Dr ast AI!!!! Today I had a scan that showed 3 follicles near ready, so I was given the trigger shot. AI is scheduled for 1pm followed by a scan on friday to confirm O. I'm so excited. And get this his Dr fee is only $140, which we are not sending to insurance so that no red flags are put up. I'm still waiting to see if insurance will pick up the cost of the ultrasounds or not. I'm thinking they will be covered but it takes about 3wk she said to hear back from them.

Oh and did I mention today is my anniversary? And friday is DH's bday-37 yikes he's getting old. We met when I was 19 and he 24, boy has time flown. Anyways I just think this is the best present yet and we plan on relaxing and maybe going to casino for the night to get away.

All set and ready to go

First thing this Am I was able to call NW and change my order with no problem, and no additional fees. I then called Dr office to make sure that with my last minute decision all was in order. On wed he'll do a ultrasound and possibly give me the trigger shot if I'm ready and then be all se to make a baby come thursday!!!!! I'm so nervous, excited and scared all rolled into one.

Change of Plans?

Ok so I was all set to do 1 last at home AI. I felt good about that with the added meds and monitoring from Dr to help with timing. That is until DH asked "why not just have him do it that way you know it's done right?" Well gee I don't know. So it got me to thinking. At the last minute my work schedule has opened up so I have 4 days off that conincides with my O window! Maybe it's a sign that all is lining up and I should have the Dr do the AI?? Looks like first thing Monday morn I will be calling NW and seeing if it's too late to change my order. I don't think it ships out til tuesday so I "should" have time. If I'm able to do that then I'll give the Dr a call and make the arrangements. I'm already set for an Ultrasound on Wed to check on follies and I figure that I should O thursday/friday unless the Clomid messed me up.

Meds on their way

So my trigger shot has been ordered. The Dr called it into some mail order company, I've never done that before but what ever works. Before insurance it's $45, but I'm hoping insurance covers at least part of that. With the Clomid it only paid $5, so it was $25 for me. Any way that should be here Monday, Ultrasound on Wednesday and we'll see if I'm ready for the shot or not. I'm hoping I'm ready by then since I have Thursday and Friday off so that would help with the insems and stress on timing.

Update: clomid has been giving me mild headaches, not a big deal. Well last night was the first time that I experienced the dreaded "over heating". I was so hot last night I thought about turning on the fan, but in the end I simply stripped down and was able to eventually fall asleep. 2 more days of clomid; grow eggies, grow.

clom.id

Dr apt the other day was pretty routine. Ultrasound (lovely vag kind) to look at uterus and ovaries. I'm taking clomid cd4-9 and I'm to come back on the 11th which will be CD12. I typically O on day 14/15 so it will be interesting how this affects me. No real side effects so far. First 2 days I had a mild headache smack dap in the middle of my forehead but that has gotten better. I should be getting the trigger shot by mail soon and I'm to bring that in case he decides I'm ready for it. I've decided to do this 1 last month at home with frozen and possibly from my fresh donor too. If this month is a bust then I'll move onto him doing the AI. I'm hopeful so keep your fingers crossed.

Side note: it's snowing again! It's been so nice here the last couple of days, but I kinda knew better. I mean it is N Idaho and I don't believe winter is over quite yet.

cd3 testing

I'm headed to Dr's today for more tests. Today is actually cd4 but since they couldn't get me in yesterday then I was told today would still work. He should have results from all the other tests and I'm assuming there's no problem since I didn't get a call back. Other than that all is well (for now) in my crazy life. Hope everyone else in blog land is having a good day.

After many emails

I finally gave up and called FedEx myself and they said there should be no problem delivering to my house. Yeah so I called NW and talked to the guy on the phone, he double checked and said he didn't see a problem for shipping it to my house either! So the girl on the emails doesn't know what she's talking about and it's always better to talk to someone directly rather than exchanging a million emails and still not getting the answers you want.

I'm torn on weather to order this month or not. I believe the Dr is doing this next cycle as medicated but no AI. So I'm thinking I'll do it at home, but then again maybe that's a waste of my $$ since the frozen has yet to work for me doing it myself. Or I could do a fresh cycle since my friend is still in town. Most likely that is the route I'll take since he's worked for me in the past, and if it does work then I'll already have the prog and monitoring from the Dr.

Should have AF tomorrow. sucks b/c we're going to the Brad Pa.isley concert tomorrow night and the first day of my cycle is the worst with lots of cramps, back ache and a little nausea.

NW Shipping

Agg So I finally got THE email today. yeah I'm approved to be a client again, but at the bottom of the email it states that I live in a FedEx extended service area (?) and therefore I can't have the dewar shipped to my house! I'll have to use a fed ex facility-not a fed ex kinko's or any other contracting facilities!! I've emailed them back asking why that is since I only live about 1 hour away and not way out in the sticks. I just don't understand what my $130 shipping fee would be going to if I have to drive into town every time to pick it up/drop it off. How inconvienient and possibly embarrassing! I'm hoping to resolve this some how and get it to my door, we'll see. :(

A productive day

Today was my day off and instead of running tons of errands and shopping I decided to stay home to clean and bake. I made an apple crisp with all the apples that no one was eating! I almost burnt it but it still tastes good. I also made "english muffin bread". This is so easy to make, tastes just like an english muffin and best of all there's no kneading involved. After that I proceeded to re-arrange my living room, clean the kitchen and our bedroom and do all the laundry. The only thing I didn't have the energy to tackle was our DS's bedroom. What a mess that is. Everytime I had to add the the pile it gave me quivers, but couldn't convince myself to clean it. If I would have started that I would have been throwing things away, and giving a lot to the Goodwill and when I'm in one of those moods he ends up missing a lot of his toys. lol So for now I settled with just shutting the door.

As for TTC I'm estimating that CD3 will be friday or saturday and will go in for more testing then.

14

Count them-FOURTEEN vials of blood taken yesterday for I think 16 tests (I lost count)! I thought I was gonna faint but I did really well. Other than that Dr visit went good. He started by talking a lot about the percentages of getting pg normally and % of when there may be an issue. A little about chromosonal abnormalities that would prevent egg division, that he doesn't usually test for this until after 6 or so m/c b/c this test is VERY expensive. He gave me a breast and pelvic exam, plus are you ready for this: a rectal exam. I joked telling him that wasn't part of the deal but explained that he's had a couple of patients with cysts that are not noticiable other than with a rectal. Anywho, he pretty much treats every one with Clomid, monitoring, trigger than insem followed with progesterone!! Yeah I was worried that he'd want to try a couple cycles unmedicated, but I figure if I'm paying for this I better get the full treatment. I don't think we're trying in March, that we'll be doing the blood work throughout the month and then go ahead, but maybe I misunderstood him. Bad of me I know not to get a def but I'm ok either way. Just some of the tests he ordered were: AIDS, lupus, diabetes, blood type and RH factor; then it looked like T4, and a whole bunch of other things but those are what I remember. The lab is right across from his office and he kept walking back and adding more tests I thought the lab tech was gonna hit him.

I'm to call on CD1 to schedule CD3 testing and it sounded like ultrasound. I'm hoping to hear back from NW soon. Wouldn't that just be awful if I finally get the ball rolling only to have them deny me! They didn't last time so I'm pretty positive but the thought does cross my mind.

He also mentioned that I could pick up the vial myself on the day of insem. This was discussed in a thread on the NW forum. Sounds like if you pick it up then you don't get a dewar. That would just totally depend on my work schedule, but it would be nice to save the $$. Sounds like his scheduling is "workable". I told him that if I have to work the day of insem/testing it would have to be in the am. He prefers am apts so they have plenty of time to get the test done and results back and if he's booked then he'll come in earlier.

Probably since I'm so chicken and scared to find out the possible cost of all this I didn't ask! I know I said I was but I just couldn't. I just keep hoping and praying that the insurance will cover a lot of it. I'm think that Ultrasounds will be covered and that would be a big chunck of the monitored cycle expense. At this point I'm willing to just write the check and worry about it later.

Dr apt set for Friday

So the great Dr P has reviewed my records and an initial apt is set for this Friday! I'm super excited it didn't take forever. Plus it will be before AF so if he should want tests done it will be good timing for next cycle. I'm super nervous thou since I prefer a Femal Dr and I've never had a guy dr before. Silly I know but it's still a little uncomfortable for me. But heck I'm willing to do anything to get this journey going.

I need to hurry and resubmit my paperwork for NW. It's been so long I guess I was closed out :( Plus there's been a lot of talk of how they've been dening more people as clients with no explanation so of course that has me worried.

The best part of all this is I've already talked to my husband and told him I want to be able to use all of our tax refund for this TTC process! So I'm super excited to know that we have the $$ to get this done (hopefully).

Doctor P.e.n.n.y

Well here's how it went: I showed up a little early (I always do), filled out some paperwork and waited; but not too long. I was called into the back fairly quick. A nurse asked me some more questions then took by blood pressure, weight and height then showed me into the room where I expected to wait FOREVER! But I didn't, not even 5 mins, I'm liking this place every second. The dr. penny jr was really nice and I liked him immediately. After but 2 mins he suggested I work with his dad which is what I was hoping for anyways since he deals with AI. I met Penny Sr, he seemed nice but wasn't quite what I was expecting. I'm hoping that I warm up to him when the time comes. Anyways, introductions in the hall and then ushered over to his receptionist for more paperwork. Unfortunately this guy likes to review medical records before any visits occur!!!! Bummer for me. So this morning I'm trying to track down my hit and miss records that are spread all over the U.S. The way things go I probably won't be back until March or so; and then if he wants to do any testing first it'll be April or later before I even do a Dr assisted AI. :(

When I asked the receptionist if she knew the best way to find out what is/isn't covered by insurance she said "well if he diagnosises you infertile that first visit, then most insur doesn't cover after that". Why she would jump right to infertile was beyond me, and second how could he diagnose that after just 1 visit? I just hate it when Dr's/offices jump to the wrong conclusion, where we all know that once that dreaded word is even mentioned it can wreak havoc.

So not a very good apt overall, serves me right for dragging my feet. I should have followed up with this when I said I was way back in November.

AF right on Schedule

I think the title says it all. I knew she was on her way a couple of days ago yet the pain is still there. Hoping I feel comfortable with the Dr in the am. I want an all out frontal assault on this issue and want the Dr to be in sync with that and run every test imaginable, give me every drug possible and get me pg very soon! I'll let everyone know how the apt went.

Refinancing

So I stopped into a local credit union today. It's the same one that financed us for the plow truck my husband bought in December. Anyways, at the time of that purchase they told us they'd refinance our other truck loan at a way lower rate (5.75%). I finally made it in there today to try to do that. They can with a small "glitch". They will only refinance for what the truck is "worth" rather than the payoff amount. Luckily I tend to pay extra every month so the difference is only $900 but in these tough times I would like to keep any extra $$ we do have in my pocket for what if's. So I asked about getting a loan to pay off our credit cards and just adding the $900 to that loan. She said sure no problem she just needs to get approval from her supervisor first. So I came home to print off credit card statements for their payoffs, and that's when I realized we owe a tad more than I thought. Now I'm thinking of just paying the $900 and only financing the credit cards only because I hate to make that small loan any bigger than it needs to be. Either way both refinance loans will save us a bunch of money in interest so I'm happy. I'll let you know which way I go.

No real reason to test

When checking my cervix this am I had very light spotting. This is a typical AF sign for me. I tested anyway (which I hate) it was of course Negative. Hoping at least that the Dr does a full fertility work up this month. Not sure if I'll be able to AI in Feb or not. I'm planning on being out of town the predicted weekend of O and really not into carting the dewar with me to my families house. But we'll see.

Feeling hopeful

So the ONLY symptom I have is: bloody noses. Which is a weird symptom anyways, but after looking back at my m/c cycle I've had the bloody noses on almost the same dpo as that cycle! Weird huh. I NEVER take a pg test, ever. I prefer to wait it out rather than getting my hopes up only to see a -. Well I'm so positive about this cycle that I'm thinking about buying some. But I wouldn't test until 10dpo, which would be Thursday. I have my Dr order for blood work up if I do get a +. Get this, by most pg calanders IF I conceived then my due date would be 10/20/09, which is 1 year to the Day of my M/C! If that's so, then it's def strange how life has a way of working out.

Possible sign??

Ok I may be looking too much into this, but I'm hoping it's a positive sign. I got a blood nose on friday night, that put me at 4dpo. Well I went and looked back at my chart from my pg cycle. I'd had bloody noses during that cycle too but I couldn't remember the dpo. I was thinking it was later in my cycle, but low and behold I got bloody nose on 5 & 6 dpo! Is this a sign for me? Or the flip side is that I have a head congestion going on with lots of nose blowing. I DO tend to get bloody noses sometimes when I have a cold and have been blowing my nose a lot. But for now I'm trying to look on the + side and hoping this is it.

I've been using the prog cream. I found the individual packets at Super Supplements. I like those a lot better, that way I know I'm getting just the right amount of cream. I've stepped up to using it 3x daily.

I'm thinking by fri/sat I should hopefully have either a sign of +hpt (11/12dpo) or AF will be knocking. I'm praying the witch stays away, if she does I'll be off to hopital lab for blood work!! Followed by Dr apt that's already scheduled for Feb 2. I'll keep everyone posted.

Dr visit

Ok so I finally made it to the Doctors today. I randomly picked one out of the phone book, but at that point I really didn't care. She's a NP, but I tend to like them more than the actual MD. Anyways, she listened to all my concerns and didn't seem to bat an eye when I told her we were trying to get pg with Frozen sperm. Which was good b/c if she'd made me feel uncomfortable about that I would have had to start all over with finding a new doc. I don't do well when I don't feel comfortable with them, I simply stop going to them.

So she thinks my back problems are coming more from my tense muscles rather than my back. I agree since the pain is coming more from the right side of my back vs center. She gave me a script for muscle relaxers, hoping that helps.

As far as my head she's not sure if I'm getting allergies from something at work or if I'm just picking up every germ around. She recommended I take Claritin for a cpl of weeks to see if it helps. I took 1 tonight and we'll see how it goes.

I got her to write an order for hsg/prog test so that IF I get a +hpt next weekend I can go in for testing. So that's good, but she was kinda clueless when I mentioned that if prog low that progesterone suppositories can work. I was hoping she'd write a script but she wasn't comfortable with that. But she referred me to the OB's (Dr Penny) for "multiple m/c" and that's on Feb 2, So if I have + hpt then ob visit would be right after and if there's a problem with prog #'s I should be able to get a script then.

A whole lot of IF's I know but at least it's progress and a semi-plan.

I feel like a walking medicine cabinet

To date this is what I take daily:
200mg B6
2000mg B12
fish oil
vit E
Daily vit
From O til later progesterone cream
and now dayquil b/c I can't seem to stay healthy this winter! ugh
Oh and I apply a back cream for my aching back.

Hoping all this is working. I'm officially in the dreaded TWW.

It's been forever

since I posted!! Shame on me. I have a good excuse though: ever since driving down to my mom's to pick up my son my back has been killing me! Last Monday I wanted to cry at work it hurt so bad. I work with a bunch of great people though and they knew immediately something was up with me and once I told them they helped me with my work load. I had the impossible task of finding a Good Chiropractor. I was spoiled where I lived before, I had the best one and now I compare everyone to him. I found one I'm comfortable with and he does help my back (some) but I just keeping thinking Dr. *** didn't do it that way, or Dr.*** would have my back better by now. See where I'm going with this. I almost want to try a different Dr. but then again I don't.

Also my step-daughter is Back in JAIL! She made it a whopping 3 wks before getting sent back. Now her probation will be revoked for sure, she has 5-6 months left to serve in jail for that. And now she has a Grand Theft charge!!! For what I don't know. Her probation officer is for her juvinile case and didn't have any info for the new adult charges. When I hint at this girls issues, I mean she's a compulsive liar, has no problem stealing the clothes off your back, into drugs, loves to drink till she blacks out and has mental issues to boot. She was offered counseling to deal with some of her issues but I don't believe she took it too serious. For those 3 weeks we totally did the tough love thing. It was so hard knowing she was out in the cold with basically no real place to go. But at the same time I wasn't willing to let her into our home to lie to us and rob us blind. I really don't know what to do for her at this point. She should have many more charges from her illegal activities during the summer. So she'll either learn her lesson and not want to ever go back to prison or she'll come out even worse than before!