Fun Day off

Yesterday was my day off and I wasn't quite sure what our plans would be. I struggled with "should I do errand and shopping" or "have a day of fun"? It's really a hard choice at times b/c 1 day off I never get everything done and absolutely nothing done when we do a fun activity. As summer draws to an end I find myself giving in more and more to the idea of funness. So as a surprise I loaded DS up and headed to the local water park. He was super excited. We had tons of fun and couldn't have picked a better day to go since it got close to 100*! Even though I slathered on lots of sunscreen I still got a slight burn on my belly and lower back. I don't think it's bad enough that I'll even peel. And let me just add how much nicer and cleaner this water park was compared to the one we went to 2wks ago!!

****The best part of the night was laying in bed and having the little bean just jumping around. He FINALLY kept it up long enough to get DH and DS to both feel!! I've been feeling him move for some time now, but he's had yet to be consistent enough to have them, so it was a great moment.

Maybe there's just no pregnant women in my town???

I mean that's the feeling I get when I've gone shopping for maternity clothes!! All the major stores have basically NOTHING. Even the dreaded Wal.mart has only 3 shirts and no pants. What's up with that? So with DS and DH out fishing today I headed to the mall. I figured the nicer stores were bound to have some cute clothes right? Wrong! No store in my mall has a maternity section. When I asked the assistant at JCP and she told me that I almost started crying. I was shocked. She told me that I'd have to go to the next city over to their mall. I just wasn't up to that today. So I'm just gonna have to live with my work pants digging into my stomach for 1 more wk until I have a day off, and that's IF I feel up to shopping.

20 Weeks today!!!!!!

Holy Moly where has the time gone? I can't believe I'm already half way there! And this week I officially felt the baby kicking. And I mean kicking, enough to finally feel it on the outside of belly.

I've been on a stay-cation this wk. We had plans to leave town but the plane tickets were just too much. So I've been home with DS and everyday trying to do something fun for him. Today I'm taking him to Splash down! A local water park. I'm hoping it's not too busy, less people seeing my ghostly whiteness and jiggly body. lol

Update on Step-daughter

Ok so anyone who's read my blog knows a little history with her and here's the latest. Basically since she got out of jail this last time she's had a warrant for not going to court. And she's been in the next state hiding out and even refusing to come to Idaho to see us for her birthday (and we bribed with money.) At first she was talking how her and this woman had a plan to stay out of trouble, get their GED's and finish up her court stuff. Well that lasted oh about a wk. Since then when she does call she's either drunk or high or just spouting crap out of her mouth that you don't want to hear about. For instance how her dealer "kidnapped" her b/c her friend ripped them off.

Anywho, the other wk I get a text from her on how sad she is that it's a boy and that she cried and we'll just need to try again. Well this really irrated me since we hadn't even gotten a phone call on DS or my bday. It shouldn't bother me but it did. So I wrote back it's not all about what she wants and she wrote 'well yes it is since I'm the only 1 I care about'. Well ok then, fine. So I quit texting her until last night when she text me. It went something like this:

her: guess what
me: what (and for some odd reason I just knew she'd write: I'm pg!)
her: I'm pregnant
me: for sure
her: yeah but I don't want it
me: too late for that don't you think
her: not really
me: well that's a choice you'll have to live w/the rest of your life

Let me add that she's done this before; the saying she's pg when she's really not. The last time was when her mom died and she thought the guy would want to stick around and then she wouldn't have to come and live with us. That pg never excisted.

Awhile ago we took her to an endocrinologist to check out PCOS; she's got all the classic symptoms plus since the age of 12 she's slept around (a lot) and has never gotten pg. That Dr said she didn't have it but I just didn't agree.

With no way to see her and see for myself that she's really pg I'm stuck with this feeling of she's doing it again for attention, yet at the same time I wonder and worry. I figure if she's really pg (and doesn't terminate) then she'll show up soon looking for our help. If she's not then this pg will just "go away" again like last time. And in the mean time I don't need to stress myself out. I really really really really really hope she's not pg. I know for a fact that she's not willing to give up her drug lifestyle and grow up and put the baby first. This has always been our biggest fear with her. Sorry to ramble, just a lot going through my mind with this.

All in a photo

Where the arrow is, is HIS privates.

A month!!

That's how long it's been since I posted!! Wow I've been a bad blogger. I've just not had much energy to do anything extra. I'm lucky if I get the laundry folded and forget putting it away. Pg is going nicely. No major symptoms. Boobs are bigger, I had to go buy a bigger bra the other day. Yeah a nice perk huh. Tummy looks like I did last summer before I lost 10lbs. So my last Dr apt was a very quick in and out where the Dr found the heartbeat and asked for questions. We agreed that a calcium supp would be a good idea since I DO NOT drink milk. I can't even force myself to drink the stuff unless it's in my cereal. I go back in on my Bday for the BIG ultrasound to hopefully find out if it's the blue or pink team for us. We're all pretty excited. DS is pushing pretty hard for a boy but I keep asking him what if it's a girl? He told my dad "well if it's a girl we can't send it back!" I think he'll be ok though if it is. My SIL gave me a doppler I think it's called. It's just a little unit that you put on the belly and it has headphones to listen with. We tried it the other night and DH, DS and my mom all got to listen and by the time they FINALLY passed it to me it was silence! The little buggar was hiding from me. Pretty cool thing though and sure we'll be using it often.

Nerve wracking Dr apt

I had my first "official" OB apt on Tuesday. It started off ok with just the basic pee in a cup, blood pressure and some questions. The N.P was very nice and we moved right into trying to find the heartbeat. I'm still not feeling pg and told her so and with my history or m/c she understood. She tried for almost 5 mins trying to find the heartbeat with that little doppler thing. And the whole time I'm thinking *see there's a reason I don't feel pg*. She was very nice and reasurred me that that doesn't mean there's no baby, and was able to get my Dr P to do an Ultrasound! Baby was found right where it should be. I was hoping for a better pic, but still ended up with an alien shot, oh well maybe next time. lol

As I'd said before there has been a very unfortunate mix up with my coding with insurance. They put the dreaded *I* word in my code, which I'm not; so I was able to talk to the billing lady and hopefully get most of that straightened out. Looks like I'm stuck paying for the 2 ultrasounds at the time of the IUI, but everything else should be taken care of and hopfully no more stress over that.

I go back to Dr on the 29th. They want to hear the heartbeat before they set me up for the every 4wk apts. There are 3 Dr's and 1 midwife, so I am cycling through them since you never know who you'll get at delivery. I finally told my managers at work. They are super excited, and luckily no questions yet on afterwards if I'm sticking around or not. At this point I'm not sure if I'll be able to work. We told Ds that night also. I tried being all serious and told him the Dr said I had an alien growing inside me. He just looked at me with an amazed look in his eye and said *No sir mom, you're just pregnant!" He seems very excited and we talked about how long it would take to have our baby, and that he can't rough house with me anymore. I let him take one of the new ultrasound pics to school and he told his whole class.